In true me fashion, I always seem to forget how bad Winter is for my SVT and my health in general.
When it got cold in Fall and I was doing okay, I sort of mistakenly thought GREAT, not this TIME. And that was stupid because I haven't been this sick or debilitated for a...well, like a year. Because it happens every year.
It's always kind of soul destroying, too. In and out of rapid heart rates and fighting a respiratory infection that won't leave us alone has left me kind of too drained to do a lot of blogging here.
And that, along with a list of other things, is something I'm just going to go easy on myself for.
That by itself is hard because our society devalues anything imperfect, anything not pushing the limits.
But I've found it to be necessary for my survival. So that's where my head is right now.
No New Year's resolution other than I'm going to always do the best I can. I can't afford to pay the fallout of overdoing it when daily life with chronic illness has a high enough toll.
Only wrote a page, good. I did something. That's the best I can do.
I only reviewed one book in the past three months. Well, that's at least one. It's the best I can do with the time I have right now.
We could only save a little bit of money. Good. I did something, that's probably the best I can do with my resources at this time.
I can only work a part-time job. Well, that's not insignificant, and it's the best I can do.
I only got exercise by walking the dog (slowly). That's fine. It's the best I can do right now.
The good news is I'm still writing.
I teamed up with Literary Dust for a project coming soon. She's a good friend, and a good fit for a teammate because she's a writing dynamo. I'm not one of those, but I find being around people who are that accomplished absolutely helps get things done-and working alongside them helps even more. And this project, while no small feat, is a great body of work to tackle at a time in my life where novel-ing is not going to work out in a positive way.
The best I can do is enough because I intend to keep going.